I have been awake

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still still clearly remember that season, Rao Xueman pain of youth popular series of novels throughout the campus. young secretly advertised in our class, immersed in the boring troubled youth in the story, sad youth, youth in pain.

- small stained thick closed > stared at me thoughtfully, and then very suddenly, and with that I can not understand the excitement, holding I said, -

sweet and sour like a very good boy, and afraid of the small stained confession, like the story of the meters of sand, and me. In her words: Wake up and Mo as the amount of Liu Qi, and Mo wake up wake up and down like the long hair around his waist, it is as quiet and Mo Wake up, the same cold, people want the same love and affection. -

I just faint smile. -

Cute little dye whisper to me: From the classroom window during recess boy walked very elegant. I know that time little sweet heart, and look forward to dye. I know the boy from her, like a gust of wind when flying normally, without expression, without leaving traces after the pain and sorrow. -

I sat beside a small dye. Never looked like this quiet little course, speechless. . . . -

Because love robbery, love only solution. -

In many a morning, a small dye far looked at the beginning of Yang, a playful wink at me: -

Small dye, my lovely little stained finally back ... -

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boring boring high school life, continues on its orbit. . . -

And we drift apart. . . -

When Shutian Lin slowly lifted in my sight, everything becomes chaotic. . -

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I can think of can I say? In fact, I do not want to say. -

Helpless ......-

Quietly I looked up the sky, blue sky, free of dust under .-

second. I take back sight and gave him a faint smile .-

I, I will cure your heart disease .-

my illness, my heart ....-

who knows? And who can heal? -

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a long time, I can not remember from where Hou .-

when he was always by my side patiently .-

in my meal, patted my head. with an adult tone Zhang fragrance with paper towels, wipe my eyes the tears .-

after going to night classes in my home alone on a dark, speak a variety of stories, diluted the inner desolation .-

I still do not want to say anything, let it well [link widoczny dla zalogowanych], some things had to not be too transparent, is not it? -

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Winter came quietly and small .-

I wear a thick jacket stained, with Mao Rong Rong's gloves.'re Hiding In the warm world .-

exposed lean cheeks, cold quite red, and we are still very wanton laugh, smile and laugh the heart could not help but have tears. -

Small stained cried, I cried, cried for our world. -

The third year we have become very sensitive. -

Not the end of the track, not the end of the dark, not dispersed, confused. -

I hate winter, very nasty. -

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I gently rolled my body, and the small stained face, close to her cheek. -

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Story reminds me of Mo Wake up sand and rice, another savior, another harbor, the warmth of each other. However, in the end can not escape the cruel reality. -

Simple small stained believe me, very happy asleep. I have been awake .....-

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summer after the college entrance examination, and not brought me much pleasure. -

Because I was quiet, destined for a number of things not easily happy about, or melancholy. -

About me to see the sea of small dye, I do not agree. I am afraid to go to the sea, fear of the sea will swallow small wider for me. -

When I send a small stained, small dye, said she would pick one of the most beautiful shells sent to me, and our names engraved. -

I smiled at her a little bit lost in the vast crowd. -

Man on a nest sad heart, -

a beautiful evening, I go back to the school. -

Had wanted to walk out, but accidentally, went to the school gate. -

Stopped, looked to the inside, very desolate feeling, suddenly wanted to go. -

Automatic gates, leaving only half a body the gap, I side of the sideways, inside out. -

No shadows. No noise. There is no consciousness. -

I looked up and looked at the original classroom far, the sun fell on the army for the teaching of the ancient upstairs, the distribution of dazzling light. -

At the moment, I feel my world a blank, without any ideas. -

Goodbye, my school. -

Goodbye, my high school. -

Goodbye, my past. -

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To see Shutian Lin, I still want to escape. -

Initial escape, because hate to see him, and hate of him. -

Now, I admit, I liked him. -

However, I can not face him, because the heart of the guilt. -

And saw the back of his weight loss, my heart endless confusion. Quickly turned and ran. -

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Why, or was he seen? -

Why, let me run farther? -

Why not help my heart to own stopped? -

Rapid pace slowly around, he picked up the my hand, and firmly said: So, I really was the most terrible curse. Never escape the curse. -

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Yes, that terrible merciless sea swallowed my little stained. Will never sleep in a small dye - the moment in the palm of the hand is firmly grasping one of the most beautiful shells.

Not. I do not believe.

Small dye, you must be Zhuangshui, right? and then again as it was before [link widoczny dla zalogowanych], I pretended to be angry in the first second, playful wink, giggle laughing.

wake up! . .

flood of grief like mad, red cross my heart embankment.

I began to live the shaking, and then I try my hardest to run, run near a large piece of the terrible sea, the pace of panic that I fell to the ground again and again, but, what can not stop I have been swallowed up in the heart of grief.

like water until the poison seeped into my skin, I finally weak knees. That night, as a decade ago as knees.

trance dropped back memories of that summer. . . . I 躲在房间里

-year-old, through the narrow door, saw her mother kneeling behind her father, crying begging my father not to leave, however, dropped the word ruthless father , left.

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I thought I heard my mother go away in the back of my father, the heart, a land broken voice.

my poor mother, so humble in the face of mother love, a man betrayed by her favorite, and then, in every lonely night, counting his own injury.

mother took me tightly in his arms, saying some of that age I can not understand the words.

the world will never have true love, in the end only a betrayal. cruel betrayal.

mother finally saw my father a seductive woman after her into his arms, was devastated.

her in a dark end to a desperate ----- death. With her love and hate, there is no nostalgia left the earth.

I was just a child.

I knelt in silence at the beach, kneeling left to the direction of her mother.

I feel Heaven and Earth seem to be mixed into one [link widoczny dla zalogowanych], I swallowed a small moment, the slightest cold through my warm skin, flowing into the heart.

was him, Shutian Lin. Neighbor boy.

He squeezed my hand, gently wipe the tears of my face, I am carrying spaced, step by step walk home.

However, now I am unable to speak again with the pain of despair Yu, kneeling in front of the same piece of sea.

a warm embrace, will I be buried from the grief of memory saved.

I buried in his warm embrace, not hide my pain, I cry no longer forbear, as did many years ago, burst into tears.

Shutian Lin, Ji misty eternal guardian.

warm smile at me and nodded firmly.

If those things ten years ago, those words, the same as the spell seal my emotions. So, I want to tell you, now I am finally no longer alone. I can not live in my memory of a city full of sadness. I wish every night, can saw your star.

Yu Tianlin back of my hand gently, facing him.

sadness in many, I gently close my eyes finally, peace of mind lie in it.

the meantime, I have been awake.

(Editor: the wandering knife)